Do Not go Gentle...

My turning 50 didn't even spur a "getting older" blip. No self introspection of what I should and shouldn't do, impervious to those "What You Should Never Wear After 50" articles. That was until  I recently saw a few "ole" friends for lunch at Stone Soup, and realized that we had all spent the first 30 minutes talking about serious stuff--the state of education, retirement accounts, and getting older.  But, just as quickly as I had spiraled into an unrealistic grappling to be "forever young," I experienced a revival of living in the now--to keep moving, moving past that mirror and over to my Sean T CD's or my kayak or a Mud Run with my nephew.  And I remembered that intense "living" has nothing to do with age, it's about attitude.

 A few weeks ago, a winter's-end-blast-of-cold froze and cracked a line in our basement. Well water spewed over a chest of drawers full of old photographs.  After mopping up, I sifted through the damp collection and found this old newspaper article about my Little League baseball game,  in a long forgotten scrapbook.

Tawana baseball

Twelve years old and defiant towards my big brother and the all boys baseball league.

Now, the pigtails are gone, and my knees would probably cement if I sat behind home plate, even just for one inning.  My batting average certainly wouldn't be out of the 100's,  with Barry Bowyer's fast balls brushing me  back off the plate. 

But the memories of playing springtime baseball, of being the solo girl in the field of boys, reminds me to keep moving, to get dirty, to refuse to go gentle.

A challenge propelled me to play baseball.

I tagged along to watch my older brother try out for Little League.

Once we got to Harmon Field in Tryon, the park was a staccato rhythm of thwunking and popping of leather against leather and the dull ting of ball against aluminum.  

I stood near the fencing, sidling up beside the line of hopeful fathers, as my brother walked off, glove in hand, and quipped an end to our quiet argument: "Girls don't play baseball."

I borrowed a glove and signed my name on the try out list.  I don't know what they--boys and men--thought.  

I tapped the plate, when it was my turn.  I hit, I took infield, I threw. I ran. 

The next week, I went to my first Red Sox practice. My baseball season started.

Thirty eight years later, it's another spring, and Little League is getting ready to start. And there will certainly be youngsters throwing, hitting, running at Harmon Field, as they have for the past 75 or so years.  But other young people will be vegetating, hibernating,  over contemplating. And while many young baseball players race and rebel against the umpires' might,  we all can be a player, regardless of age, like Thomas'  "Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight."

Keep Moving!